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Phone Guru! Call from Tibet asking me if I am interested in Tantric White Light

by Renee Lindstrom, GCFP

On a cold night in the early winter months I received a phone call. It was on my house phone that normally I don’t answer if I don’t recognize the number.  After saying hello the caller asks, “Do you know who I am?” My first thought was, “really?”  I said, “no!”  He went on to say, ” your number has come to me in meditation a few times so I am calling you.”

He goes on to say, “I am Sun and I am calling from Tibet.  I was in Victoria in the fall at the Empress giving a workshop and then he asks, “Did you come?”

Hearing that my number came to him in meditation was suspicious as I believe spirit doesn’t give out phone numbers.  He went on to ask as though to confirm, “you are an energy worker, are you not?”  This is something I don’t announce loudly in my community.  It this is personal to me and woven in my work and teachings.  It is not a persona.   I have witnessed too many people create a guru self-image or persona they haven’t integrated into their behaviour.  My experience is that too many people have been unable to act in alignment with the self-image they portray.  Rather than be a guru, I am interested in each person finding their own guru qualities within themselves.

I reflected that this person did have a slight accent and the phone line did sound hollow in the background.  Hum, I ask myself, is this a new sort of scam?  However I was curious and guarded.  This seems to anger him and he began demonstrating his frustration in how he spoke.  His way of speaking was abusive and his manner was power over. He was trying to put me in a victim position  to form of manipulative connection. I thought wow and wondered how many are falling for this?  Is this the direction scammers are going?

I had questioned the direction I wanted to go in the Heart Centered Coaching I do with regards to sexual issues in the week leading up to this call.  I have been the confident of a range of sexual experiences and actions of others and on occasion I reflect how this is for me.  I happened to be in one of these periods of self-reflection.   Listening to this man proclaiming to be a Tibetan Guru asking me if I wanted the Tantric White Light, I wondered if this by chance or was something else at work here?

I heard instructions that fit with ceremony that I was familiar with and in this context, I realized that who ever was speaking with me could see what I was doing.  I looked outside the windows and no one was around.  I could hear others in the house settle for the night and there wasn’t anyone in the house that I didn’t know. That is when I realized the person on the phone was using remote viewing.  He knew if I was doing the actions he was telling me to do.  He knew what room I was in and that I wasn’t obeying his commands.  At this point I was half in and half out of being committed, and now I wanted to know how far it he would go.  I stayed on the line and half heartily followed along.  Eventually there was silence.

During the ceremonial aspect, his instructions became absurd and, whether this was the form of a Tantric White Light Ceremony or not, I do know that in past Tibetan Buddhist ceremonies transmissions as he was suggesting he was preforming is preceded by meditation and extensive teachings that happen in a dedicated retreat.  At the end of such a retreat one is then given a transmission.  This telephone voice was trying to take me through a transmission ceremony with no connection to who he was or what his teaching were.  What was the commitment and responsibility.  Was he trustworthy?  etc., etc.

All the while my inner observer was alive and partly intrigued and partly in shock. Disbelief is how I would describe it.  My concern of course was that this trending tantric phenomenon was becoming a scam.  This man was not invited by me to enter into my space by phone or remote viewing and certainly he was not invited to be my teacher.

As I sensed my space during this phone encounter and his remote viewing, I experienced that his energetic imprint wasn’t strong enough to engage me on a physical, mental or emotional level.  I was intrigued, not convinced or committed but skeptical. Afterwards I had to laugh as the ridiculousness set in.

I did type Tantric into Google search and saw the number of professed Tantric Practitioners with western names in my area.  I thought about the lineage I studied and how the teachers were born into the cultural source of the teachings and that it was a life long experience.  It was not a weekend, a week or even two.  It used to be a lifetime commitment.

In conversation with a mentor and friend a few days later, I was given a broader context. I heard and agreed with them that even if this person was a Guru from Tibet, they had a lot to learn about Western Culture and behaviour in relationships.  As far as my phone number was concerned, I heard the perspective that my number was given to him by someone here in the community.  I was told that my energy work is well-known here in the community even if I don’t focus on it in any particular way.

Fast forward a few months and I learn an ex-partner has gone on a trip to India.  I was curious about the short time someone would make for such a journey – two weeks.  I learned that one week, 7 days, will be spent on a Tantric Retreat.  My mind goes back to a memory of this persons first meditation retreat and coming to settle on a cushion. and how he was sitting in meditation attempting to be  double cross-legged in an Indian fashion (like Aladdin), not western fashion, with a back posture and stoic facial expression.  At the time I was surprised.  I observed that he could only bring one leg into this posture.   As these memories come up, I wonder if this is the context to my phone call!

What I manifested from this personal experience. real or not, was an answer to my inner questions of working with sexual pain people share with me about in our sessions. Whether it is a session for Functional Integration,  the movement releases held sexual tension, in Heart-Centered Empathy Coaching, or healing Personal Environments, sometimes sexual issues need to be witnessed without judgement.

My commitment may have not been to Sun,  however it is to experience sexual healing in a unique Western Way.  Remember,  I am interested in the person becoming their own Guru, not in being their Guru!

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Renee Lindstrom, GCFP,
Jaw Release Program since 2007, Authored  Achieving your Goals  31 Day Program, Sleep Sweet Sleep, Kid’s Peace Bus Calendar of Values  Educational Program & InTouch with Your Values Self-Actualization Program.  Feldenkrais® Practitioner since 2007, Communication & Empathy Coach since 2004, Art of Placement  since 2000, Labyrinths of Victoria since 2012, #yyj Peace Week Grassroots Calendar Founder, Vice-Chair of World Children

Starting a Meditation Practice

A meditation practice will help you to focus your mind, open your heart and find insight.  I can personally recommend Shambhala Meditation offered in North America since the early 70’s.  Having discovered this in my *own practice I can attest to the value of exploring this in one’s life and recommend this style of meditation.  It will benefit an awaking communication and movement practice.

Examine for yourself how the tools of mindfulness and awareness can help you learn how to work with emotions when they arise, both on and off the meditation cushion.  Explore the concept of peaceful abiding that is the core of our being with this on-line introduction.  

Sit Like a Buddha Link

Sit Like a Buddha Link

*own practice – Renee Lindstrom, sat on the board of  a community Shambhala Meditation Centre in the mid-nineties,  while exploring a language for connection and movement awareness for inner connectiveness

How can one balance aspects of self?

Medicine wheel2Recently I enjoyed viewing a “Coles Notes” explanation of the a Medicine Wheel from a fellow Canadian in Alberta.  This Elder was connecting with a troubled youth through the act of  walking.  There was not a direct focus on any issues.  I observed through their discussion that the Elder was very aware of this youth and their needs through their behavior and unspoken expression.  Rather than being direct and  telling the youth anything, it was through guidance and modelling. The Elder began sharing the concept of  the Medicine Wheel and encouraged the youth  to walk, enter and stop in the center.  The  explanation of the Medicine Wheel was subtle and included the four directions, north, south, east and west.  There was also mention of the balance of the four aspects of self for connecting to ones center.  

Viewing this was a revelation and it was exciting to recognize the similarities to the core principles in the integrative centering and wellness tools offered in the getting InTouch programs at Inside.  These include levels of experiencing integration from the outside in.  These include

  • guidance versus telling,
  • mentoring versus teaching,
  • modeling versus telling and not walking it oneself in reality,
  • experiencing patterns versus fixing it.  

The wellness tools are for creating an open learning mindfulness versus a closed mind that knows everything.  The difference:

Becoming comfortable within oneself leads to acceptance and expansion beyond experiences into deeper relationships.  

Staying in the discomfort of always knowing the answer, in fear of feeling, leads to a *struggle.  Being right creates disconnection from all things. 

*The struggle is keeping the walls of power up that come from being right.

One way to experience balancing aspects of self with Inside is through sharing a Labyrinth Walk.  If you compare the following labyrinth design with the Medicine Wheel above you will see the similarities.  Listening to the Elder share his Medicine Wheel with the youth I was able to hear very similar guidance of sharing a labyrinth walk with others.  I was thrilled to experience the connectedness between these ancient patterns!

Chartres 11 Circuit Labyrinth

Chartres 11 Circuit Labyrinth


Other ways to experience balancing aspects of  self with Inside tools and techniques:

Subtle Inner Connecting

  • Awareness through Movement©
  • Conscious Movement
  • Sharing the Labyrinth (similarities  to a Medicine Wheel)
  • Nature Walking
  • Meditation/Contemplation 

Deepening Inner Connections

  • Guidance with  the Spoken Word
  • Functional Integration©

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©by Renee Lindstrom, GCFP, May, 2014
Feldenkrais® Practitioner since 2007, Communication & Empathy Coach since 2004, Art of Placement since 2000

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