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Phone Guru! Call from Tibet asking me if I am interested in Tantric White Light

by Renee Lindstrom, GCFP

On a cold night in the early winter months I received a phone call. It was on my house phone that normally I don’t answer when I don’t recognize the number. After saying hello the caller asks, “Do you know who I am?” My first thought was, “really?”  I said, “no!”  He went on to say, ” your number has come to me in meditation a few times so I am calling you.”

He goes on to say, “I am Sun and I am calling from Tibet.  I was in Victoria in the fall at the Empress giving a workshop and then he asks, “Did you come?”

Hearing that my number came to him in meditation was suspicious as I believe spirit doesn’t give out phone numbers.  He went on to ask as though to confirm, “you are an energy worker, are you not?”  This is something I don’t announce loudly in my community.  It this is personal to me and woven in my work and teachings.  It is not a persona.   I have witnessed too many people create a guru self-image or persona they haven’t integrated into their behaviour.  My experience is that too many people have been unable to act in alignment with the self-image they portray.  Rather than be a guru, I am interested in each person finding their own guru qualities within themselves.

I reflected that this person did have a slight accent and the phone line did sound hollow in the background.  Hum, I ask myself, is this a new sort of scam? However I was curious and guarded.  This seems to anger him and he began demonstrating his frustration in how he spoke.  His way of speaking was abusive and his manner was power over. He was trying to put me in a victim position  to form of manipulative connection. I thought wow and wondered how many are falling for this?  Is this the direction scammers are going?

I had questioned the direction I wanted to go in the Heart Centered Coaching I do with regards to sexual issues in the week leading up to this call.  I have been the confident of a range of sexual experiences and actions of others and on occasion I reflect how this is for me.  I happened to be in one of these periods of self-reflection.   Listening to this man proclaiming to be a Tibetan Guru asking me if I wanted the Tantric White Light, I wondered if this by chance or was something else at work here?

I heard instructions that fit with ceremony that I was familiar with and in this context, I realized that who ever was speaking with me could see what I was doing.  I looked outside the windows and no one was around.  I could hear others in the house settle for the night and there wasn’t anyone in the house that I didn’t know. That is when I realized the person on the phone was using remote viewing.  He knew if I was doing the actions he was telling me to do.  He knew what room I was in and that I wasn’t obeying his commands.  At this point I was half in and half out of being committed, and now I wanted to know how far it he would go.  I stayed on the line and half heartily followed along.  Eventually there was silence.

During the ceremonial aspect, his instructions became absurd and, whether this was the form of a Tantric White Light Ceremony or not, I do know that in past Tibetan Buddhist ceremonies transmissions as he was suggesting he was preforming is preceded by meditation and extensive teachings that happen in a dedicated retreat.  At the end of such a retreat one is then given a transmission.  This telephone voice was trying to take me through a transmission ceremony with no connection to who he was or what his teaching were.  What was the commitment and responsibility.  Was he trustworthy?  etc., etc.

All the while my inner observer was alive and partly intrigued and partly in shock. Disbelief is how I would describe it.  My concern of course was that this trending tantric phenomenon was becoming a scam.  This man was not invited by me to enter into my space by phone or remote viewing and certainly he was not invited to be my teacher.

As I sensed my space during this phone encounter and his remote viewing, I experienced that his energetic imprint wasn’t strong enough to engage me on a physical, mental or emotional level.  I was intrigued, not convinced or committed but skeptical. Afterwards I had to laugh as the ridiculousness set in.

I did type Tantric into Google search and saw the number of professed Tantric Practitioners with western names in my area.  I thought about the lineage I studied and how the teachers were born into the cultural source of the teachings  that is a lifelong experience.  It was not a weekend, a week or even two.  It used to be a lifetime commitment.

In conversation with a mentor and friend a few days later, I was given a broader context. I heard and agreed with them that even if this person was a Guru from Tibet, they had a lot to learn about Western Culture and behaviour in relationships.  As far as my phone number was concerned, I heard the perspective that my number was given to him by someone here in the community.  I was told that my energy work is well-known here in the community even if I don’t focus on it in any particular way.

In August, 2020 I received a message that this person who calls himself Sun is still active.  I was given a link to a forum that shares posts of him going back as far as 2004.  The site is called Cult Education and the post heading, Sex Crime Alert: Fake Tantra ‘Master’ in Sedona AZ

What I manifested from this personal experience. real or not, was an answer to my inner questions of working with sexual pain people share with me about in our sessions. Whether it is a session for Functional Integration,  the movement releases held sexual tension, in Heart-Centered Empathy Coaching, or healing Personal Environments, sometimes sexual issues need to be witnessed without judgement.

My commitment may have not been to Sun,  however it is to experience sexual healing in a unique Western Way.  Remember,  I am interested in the person becoming their own Guru, not in being their Guru!


by Renee Lindstrom

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Is it time to hit the re-set button and delve deeper into the causes rather than teaching solutions?

BrainAt the end of an Awareness through Movement® lesson, designed for  participants to begin to notice their movement patterns and experience a stronger sense of   their body movements, one student shared a story.   She had been told by a new, young orthopedic doctor that their was nothing more she could do her frozen shoulder except surgery.   She went on to say he told her, “Don’t waste your money on any more physical therapy or anything, surgery is the only cure.”

Curious I asked what part of her shoulder would be operated on.  She was unable to tell me. I told her that knowing more about what was wrong and what would be fixed is part of the brains healing process.

I asked her if I could take a look at her arm and shoulder.  Agreeing to this she let me take a look and I discovered that it was far more expansive than her shoulder.  As soon as I picked up her arm she mentioned that her wrist and elbow hurt  from the computer mouse.  In her mind a shoulder operation will fix this as well.

I suggested to her that it would be a good idea to continue with some type of therapy as in my opinion the cause was much broader than what a simple operation could cover.  An operation is not going to teach her how to use and integrate her full range of motion and movement ability.

We have been collectively lulled into a false sense that others know what’s best for us without questioning and exploring what we can do differently.  This gal told me that she spent years with the phone up to her ear lifted by this shoulder.  That is the pattern I felt in her upper quadrant that includes clavicle, underarm, upper back, shoulder-blade and upper arm.  Her operation cannot include these areas nor does it change the habit she has developed.  The only way she can change her habit is by learning to do something different and an operation alone will not offer this training.  New patterns of movement must be introduced to her brain in an aware state.  It isn’t something that can be done to her while her mind is off somewhere else.    Have you read The Brain’s Way of Healing: Remarkable Discoveries and Recoveries from the Frontiers of Neuroplasticity by Norman Doidge yet?


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Turning an abusive & disgusting appointment into lemonade!

The Shocking Practitioner & Novelty Store

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Sometime last August  I was asked if I would like to go to an iridologist.  I hesitated as I have learned to not compare the work I do, with what others are doing in the community.   However, uncharacteristically I said okay.  The gal that was passing her appointment on to me gave me instructions of how I would have to fill out forms once going to the customer service at this local #yyj storefront.

On arrival at the customer service desk of this local store I am immediately brushed aside once I announced myself .  The gal tells a clerk to put me in the new massage chair.  I sat down and found out this clerk didn’t know how to use the chair which was unlike any massage chair I had ever seen.  The clerk left and I found myself in a chair that was manipulating my movement patterns in a way that could cause injury while squeezing my limbs tighter and tighter without stopping!  I was desperately trying to stop the machine when the practitioner came up to me and expressed impatience and annoyance.  Luckily I found out that it had to do with her taking another client ahead of me without an appointment so that I didn’t take it personally.  That is to begin with until it went from bad to worse.

At no time did she share what she was doing in her appointment, however demanded, in a chastising  way, personal information about me that I was uncertain had anything to do with why I came.  Walking into her office I was dumbfounded.  A massage table was put into an alcove under the stairway and lowered to sit on across from a broken office chair that I was expected to sit on. The floor was covered in old worn out shoes scattered around so that I had nowhere to put my feet.  She only had a small space to sit on the table cross-legged style across from me and there were no windows or vents.  When she was giving me some papers, that the customer service desk neglected to give me ahead of time, to fill in she began yelling about my lack of being committed.  I was in shock.

She decided there wasn’t time to fill in the papers and began looking at my eyes and making personal statements based upon my iris’ while wanting confirmation of her accuracy.  There was no way I would be telling this gal anything personal or being vulnerable with her.  At no time did I experience any empathy, kindness, respect or consideration.  I had not been to a practitioner like this in over 20 years!!!!!  It was awkward.  After viewing my eyes she hooked me up to a vega machine.  She made it sound outer worldly and thankfully I knew what it was  from having my own naturopathic and homeopathic doctors.   I looked in dismay as the rods poking into me as they did not look as though they had been cleaned between clients.

As she talked at me and not with me, she began talking to me about worst case scenario’s with a focus on candida.  She emphasized multiple homeopathic remedies that I would need.  Well over $200.00 worth!  I was thankful that my first Homeopathic Doctor was Stephan Malthouse and that I had his compassionate care experience prior to seeing this person.  To go along with her diagnosis I received a photocopied paper with a few food items ticked off that she claimed was all I could eat if I wanted to detox.  It had obviously been from a paper copied many times before without any research, meal/daily diet suggestions or recipes ideas.  This food list was based upon the vega machine readings and it interfered completely with an organic lifestyle change that was personally happening for me from my own garden food source.  Trying to have a conversation with her regarding this she labelled me argumentative and was unable to discuss this.  She determined I wasn’t interested in healing!

At some point she learned I was a practitioner so she cut our hour appointment to 30 minutes and hovered over me as I went to the counter to turn in the papers, etc.  She grabbed the clipboard I was using away from me and took the pen out of my fingers.  It was the appointment from hell!

Getting back to my office and processing this experience in walked one of my more fragile clients.  She had just been in to see this person and was experiencing trauma.  I was thankful I had gone after all and immediately reminded my client of her own naturopathic doctor  that does candida testing and was an iridologist.  She calmed down and I suggested she make an appointment and get a second opinion.  She did and reported back a much different outcome with a different diagnosis.  She also suggested it was a far more professional experience without the need for so many remedy purchases.

Had I not had Dr. Marshall Rosenberg’s Nonviolent Communication Training, Dr. Moshe Feldenkrias’ Feldenkrais Awareness Through Movement Training and  Dyan Grant Francis’  Art of Placement/ Eco-psychology Training , I could have fallen victim to this practitioner’s snake oil like sales technique.  Fill them with fear and keep them in the dark.    This was an abusive and disgusting experience that I was able to turn into lemonade!  The material that she offered me is not current and was a trending  topic in our community over 20 years ago.  She does not live in Victoria and helicopters in while there are practitioners here locally that have integrated these techniques into their own practice.  They are far more professional with an office set up for comfortable appointments.   I caution anyone who is seeking answers to consider that manner in which they are treated and recommend that you work with those that are meeting your needs for respect.  I did receive a flyer shortly after this appointment that advertised this practitioner as a mindful awareness instructor and grief coach.  I was surprised and felt sad as my experience didn’t align with these two offerings.


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Transitioning from Language of Conflict into Language of Connection

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Lifescapes (Landscapes)

Renee Lindstrom, GCFP,
Jaw Release Program since 2007, Authored  Achieving your Goals  31 Day Program, Sleep Sweet Sleep, Kid’s Peace Bus Calendar of Values  Educational Program & InTouch with Your Values Self-Actualization Program.  Feldenkrais® Practitioner since 2007, Communication & Empathy Coach since 2004, Art of Placement  since 2000, Labyrinths of Victoria since 2012, #yyj Peace Week Grassroots Calendar Founder, Vice-Chair of World Children

 

Vitamins, Supplements, Medicinal’s & Food Sources in the yard!

In the late winter of 2016 I committed to take gardening to the next level.  I researched the properties of the weeds, plants and trees growing freely in my yard and on my block.  Since this commitment I have dried many types of leaves, stems, stalks, roots and flowers.  From these resources I have made plant infused oils, tinctures and tea mixes and from the oils; salves, creams and soaps.

Woman's Moon Tea

Woman’s Moon Flower Tea

Less than a year later I realized after a mullein leaf infused bath that I had used mullein oil in my hair , a mullein infused soap and  mullein oil on my skin.  As mullein is safe to ingest, I had drunk mullein tea before bathing!  One of the benefits I have discovered about mullein this year is its properties for soothing muscles and softening dense skin tissue.  It felt heavenly.  It is a completely differently feeling to have natural products on my skin that has grown in my garden and created in my kitchen.  I am discovering that the feeling is a sensual quality. What is missing is the chemical feeling of store-bought creams and conditioners!  Using homegrown and homemade recipes is now an experience to personally differentiate the differences of the two.

Bamboo in Renee's garden

Indocalamus Longiauritu Bamboo in Renee’s garden

This week the focus was on the bamboo my son and I planted four years ago. One of my favorite plants. I enjoy its appearance, its sound in the garden and that it contributes to cleaning our oxygen!  It is a sustainable and renewable resource.

I am astounded by the fact that bamboo has 10 times the amount of silica than horsetail and that I can pick new leaves to make my tea.  I love going into the garden to pick leaves and not spend money at the store to buy silica  based products!

Searching on-line for bamboo tea leaves and toxicity, I have found only benefits to humans and not found any reference to toxicity in tea leaves for humans. However there are references for it being dangerous to some animals.  If you have bamboo growing in your yard and have animals it would be wise to do some personal research!

I believe that if you pick and prepare your own medicinal’s and remedies  yourself the result is that your body can digest it better than a product that has gone through a process touched by many hands.  It is also fresher and right from the source without any preservatives.   The tea tastes great and research suggests that your body only takes the amount of silica it needs and eliminates the excess amount just like it does for Vitamin C!

Since discovering the benefits of bamboo tea I have enjoyed drinking a cup a day and explored it as an infusion in my bath and for my hair!  Loving it…….my hair has a shine I haven’t seen in a while!  

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The only way to change is action

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Awareness through Communication – Western Mind integrating Eastern Mindful Practice
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Relationships Matter: ‘Couples Intimacy ‘


“If there are problems in the bedroom, there’s conflict!”

“If there are problems in the relationship there are problems in the bedroom!”

These are two comments I made at our 3rd Removing Obstacles to Love workshop last night!  Our conversation was focused on the aspects of our primary relationships.  Breaking it down into bite sized pieces, so to speak,  there are four areas of focus in our primary relationships that affect each other.  They are:

  1. Family/Community/Social Network
  2. Household Health/Financial
  3. Relationship (Interaction & Behavior)
  4. Intimacy

Our consideration was on the dynamics of unresolved issues and  how some people can compartmentalized their relationship issues and still be intimate while others need to have resolution on outstanding issues to have their needs for safety met to be vulnerable enough for intimacy!

Where are you in this topic?  Do you need the resolution of your unresolved issues with your partner to be as intimate as you like?  

In this scenario, I suggested that if couples are open and honest with each other and they speak up about what is important to them in the moment that this present connection could lead them to intimacy.  Why?  It is the connection that is important, not the issues.  Any unresolved issues is about not be seen, not being heard and not being valued!  My recommendations are to slow down and listen.  Learn to listen to your partners soul and your own!


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Jaw Release Program since 2007, Authored  Achieving your Goals  31 Day Program, Sleep Sweet Sleep, Kid’s Peace Bus Calendar of Values  Educational Program & InTouch with Your Values Self-Actualization Program.  Feldenkrais® Practitioner since 2007, Communication & Empathy Coach since 2004, Art of Placement  since 2000, Labyrinths of Victoria since 2012, #yyj Peace Week Grassroots Calendar Founder, Vice-Chair of World Children

I have to share this!!!

Yesterday at my Awareness through Movement® class on Balance a participant mentioned that when she went to her Doctor, his solution for her was to say,   “Just, stop falling!”

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Renee Lindstrom, GCFP,
Feldenkrais® Practitioner since 2007, Value-Based Communication & Empathy Coach since 2004, Art of Placement  since 2000, Founder of Greater Victoria Peace & Intercultural Celebrations since 2010 & Greater Victoria Labyrinths since 2012, #yyj Peace Week Calendar Founder – 2014 & 2015

“Visitor from hell came to stay”

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“Wild cat” to ‘loving cat’!

Last summer my son and his cat came to stay for a time.  At the end of two weeks I stood in the living room looking at this cat beast and told myself she had to go. I noticed that I was afraid and anxious around her.  She acted tough and responded like a feral cat.  Her tail was stiff and unyielding if you brushed into it and she immediately took up living space.  She was not friendly or loving.  She scratched people, furniture and rugs.

Another voice spoke up suggesting I put my training to good use and do what I would do for my clients and students followed by a question, “What if I  accepted  and empathized with her, and loved her just as she was?”  So I told myself, “okay, what if I begin to meet her needs?” So I did. I began to give her my focus of attention.  I spent time with her when she started to scratch at the couch.  If she went to her food dish, I gave her food.  If she wanted to go outside, I took her out.  I began to take her for walks and play with her.  I didn’t let her overnight alone as she would become crazy by herself in the dark.   She became one of my priorities in my daily schedule and a lifestyle consideration.

As her basic needs were met and she started getting a lot more attention she began to thrive.  After about two weeks she would come and lay on the back of the couch and stare directly into my eyes.  I wondered if she was checking in to sense if she was safe enough with me to left her guard down.  Soon she began to settle and start behaving more friendly and was calmer.  Over time she stopped behaving wild.  Some qualities of her wildness reappears if her needs and schedule aren’t kept.

Her personality has completely shifted and new wonderful characteristics are emerging daily.  I am in awe of her and now understand how people can enjoy and love cats.  I didn’t know I could enjoy them as well.  This one has opened my heart wide open! With her in my life these past months I have noticed my ease to show my loving nature is growing and that my need to be protective is diminishing.  She has brought these two qualities to my attention for which I am grateful!

What I have learned from this little one is that the environment and relationships that we have with other people can be translated to our pets.  Our pets respond to the same value needs as we do even without spoken words!  That communication is the quality of our responsive behavior more than our spoken words.

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Renee Lindstrom, GCFP,
Feldenkrais® Practitioner since 2007, Value-Based Communication & Empathy Coach since 2004, Art of Placement  since 2000, Founder of Greater Victoria Peace & Intercultural Celebrations since 2010 & Greater Victoria Labyrinths since 2012, #yyj Peace Week Calendar Founder – 2014 & 2015