by Renee Lindstrom, GCFP
On a cold night in the early winter months I received a phone call one evening. It was on my house phone, which I do not normally answer if I don’t recognize the number. After saying hello the caller asks, “Do you know who I am?” My first thought was, really?, as I said, “no!” He went on to say, ” your number has come to me in meditation a few times so I am calling you.”
He say’s, “I am Sun and I am calling from Tibet. I was in Victoria in the fall at the Empress giving a workshop.” He asked me, “Did you come?”
Hearing that my number came to him in meditation was suspicious to me as I believe spirit doesn’t give out phone numbers. However, I was intrigued about the name Sun as an ex-partner and I had a business called Son’s.
He went on to say as if to confirm, “you are an energy worker, are you not?” This is something I don’t announce loudly in my community as this is personal to me. For me it is between the creator and myself and woven in my work and teachings. It is not a persona. I have witnessed too many people create a guru self-image or persona that doesn’t match their behaviour and have experienced too many people that are unable to act in alignment with the self-image they have created for themselves or are trying to create. Rather than be a guru I am interested in each person finding their own guru qualities within themselves.
I reflected that this person did have a slight accent and the phone line did sound hollow in the background. Hum, I ask myself, is this a new sort of scam? However I was curious and guarded. This seems to anger him and he began demonstrating his frustration in how he spoke. His way of speaking was abusive and power over. He was trying to put me in a victim position, a form of manipulative connection. I thought wow, how many are falling for this? Is this the direction scammers are going?
I had questioned the direction I wanted to go in the Heart Centered Coaching I do with regards to sexual issues in the week leading up to this call. I have been the confident of a range of sexual experiences and actions of others and on occasion I reflect how this is for me. I happened to be in one of these periods of self-reflection. Listening to this man proclaiming to be a Tibetan Guru asking me if I wanted the Tantric White Light, I wondered if this by chance or was something else at work here?
I heard instructions that fit with ceremony that I was familiar with and in this context, I realized that who ever was speaking with me could see what I was doing. I looked outside the windows and no one was around. I could hear others in the house settle for the night and there wasn’t anyone in the house that I didn’t know. That is when I realized the person on the phone was using remote viewing. He knew if I was doing the actions he was telling me to do. He knew what room I was in and that I wasn’t obeying his commands. At this point I was half in and half out of being committed, and now I wanted to know how far it he would go. I stayed on the line and half heartily followed along. Eventually there was silence.
During the ceremonial aspect, his instructions became absurd and, whether this was the form of a Tantric White Light Ceremony or not, I do know that in past Tibetan Buddhist ceremonies the transmission is preceded by meditation and extensive teachings in a dedicated retreat. At the end of the retreat one is then given a transmission. This telephone voice was trying to take me through a transmission ceremony with no connection to who he was or what his teaching were. What was the commitment and responsibility. Was he trustworthy? etc., etc.
All the while my inner observer was alive and partly intrigued and partly in shock. Disbelief is how I would describe it. My concern of course was that this trending tantric phenomenon was becoming a scam. This man was not invited by me to enter into my space by phone or remote viewing and certainly he was not invited to be my teacher.
As I sensed my space during this phone encounter and his remote viewing, I experienced that his energetic imprint wasn’t strong enough to engage me on a physical, mental or emotional level. I was intrigued, not convinced or committed but skeptical. Afterwards I had to laugh as the ridiculousness set in.
I did type Tantric into Google search and saw the number of professed Tantric Practitioners with western names in my area. I thought about the lineage I studied and how the teachers were born into the cultural source of the teachings and that it was a life long experience. It was not a weekend, a week or even two. It used to be a lifetime commitment.
In conversation with a mentor and friend a few days later, I was given a broader context. I heard and agreed with them that even if this person was a Guru from Tibet, they had a lot to learn about Western Culture and behaviour in relationships. As far as my phone number was concerned, I heard the perspective that my number was given to him by someone here in the community. I was told that my energy work is well-known here in the community even if I don’t focus on it in any particular way.
Fast forward a few months and I learn an ex-partner has gone on a trip to India. I was curious about the short time someone would make for such a journey – two weeks. I learn that one week, 7 days, will be spent on a Tantric Retreat. My mind goes back to a memory of this persons first meditation retreat and coming to settle on a cushion. and how he was sitting in meditation attempting to be double cross-legged in an Indian fashion (like Aladdin), not western fashion, with a back posture and stoic facial expression. At the time I was surprised. I observed that he could only bring one leg into this posture. As these memories come up, I wonder if this is the context to my phone call!
What I manifested from this personal experience. real or not, was an answer to my inner questions of working with sexual pain people share with me about in our sessions. Whether it is a session for Functional Integration, the movement releases held sexual tension, in Heart-Centered Empathy Coaching, or healing Personal Environments, sometimes sexual issues need to be witnessed without judgement.
My commitment may have not been to Sun (Son), however it is to experience sexual healing in a unique Western Way. Remember, I am interested in the person becoming their own Guru, not in being their Guru!
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