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Change through focus & purposeful action

‘People with goals succeed because they know where they’re going.’ Earl Nightingale

Change begins with the ability to recognize it.

Recognition begins with courage to pause and focus on one’s experience.

Transformation is the willingness to explore how it could be different.

A personal focus on an inner question of  how the  experience could be different equals change.

Fear, pain, lethargy and withdrawal are debilitating. These feelings enable one’s ridgid patterns that create hopelessness and deepen their grip. These stuck patterns are limiting and very often unconscious behaviours that create the tone to how one experiences their day.  Successful transformation is possible through one’s willingness to connect to inner intention and corresponding outside actions.

Retraining focus of attention

Cultivating awareness of one’s actions in the moment begins with a intentional focus of observation prior to reactive responses.   Intentional observation that is inclusive of:

  • physical inner-action (experiencing sensory movements)
  • mental inner-thoughts (viewing thoughts without acting on them)
  • inner-feelings/emotions (being in sensations without acting on them)
  • environmental stimulus (sensing stimulus of surrounding influences)

Focusing one’s attention on sensing their action in real time is the true experience.  The truth of what is happening is lost when focus shifts away from simply observing the moment.  It becomes an opinion or a perspective based upon memory. 

  • shame & blame
  • right & wrong thinking
  • punishment & reward
  • hierarchy
  • denial of responsibility
  • demands
  • comparisons
  • moral judgements
  • diagnosis, or assessments
  • labelling
  • expectations

Morality & Immunity in 2020

In the first winter months of 2020 I came down with an illness that one of my mates had. I had never heard of COVID so had no references for it’s symptoms. I did know that my immunity was strong and it easily passed. So I thought. Some time later a student who traveled outside the country booked a coaching session and came even though they were ill. Within two days it was back! This time it hit harder and I believe it was due to a lower immunity from the first go around.

Luckily for me the years practicing and mentoring Feldenkrais® made my journey through this somewhat smoother. Whatever I had was affecting my ability to take a breathe. One evening standing and leaning against the counter while focusing on my breathing patterns I realized I may never see my kids again. This was before COVID and restrictions. It was in my chest and interfering with the compulsion to organize and stimulate breathing contractions. This function seemed to have a gap and my brain wasn’t connecting to it somehow. In that instant I felt the presence of two reactions hovering. Panic and calm and steady. I choose calm and steady as I mentally reassured myself I had been training to breathe since 2004. I began to do Feldenkrais Awareness through Movement® standing there. Small supported micro-movements to stimulate my chest cavity bones. I knew I had to get my ribs, spine, shoulders, head and pelvis moving in order to get a natural pumping action to reverse the typical muscular locking that happens when one panics. Luckily for me the movement pattern was familiar and soon it calmed the survival instinct that usually takes over and becomes rigid when it kicks in. It only took a few movements before the gap I was experiencing passed and the breathing muscles fired back up. This happened a few more times after heavy bouts of coughing, yet after that first experience of directing focus on micro-movements they easily passed.

Having this ability to choose in that moment when there was a gap in the inclination to take a breathe was profound for me. It was my living example of changes I had seen in my students over the years when their breathing became fuller through increased use of their moving parts. Rigidity or holding becomes a habit that one isn’t aware of over time.

This experience brought up celebration and regret. The celebration was the living experience itself that demonstrated to me the benefits of learning methods I had been devoted to for years. The regret was the realization that at any moment something could happen quickly without being able to connect with my children. Just after these recognitions more news came out about COVID. This news added to stimulating that grief button over and over as winter turned into spring and spring into summer. I have one child living out of province which increased the grief.

By fall of 2020 I started to come out of the hangover of unresolved parenting issues that engulfed me after my own morality slapped me across the face earlier in the year. Two streams of experience co-existed for me in 2020. Unlike most references to 2020 I hear, I can share that I found a deeper joy, playfulness and beauty in 2020. I fell passionately in love with life and desire for it in its simplest experience. This was 2019’s dream, however I could never imagined it would come into being in the way that it did.

The grief process healed my parental guilt and transitioned personal reactions to a softer experience. Now there is space to have a choice to not attach to actions creating conflicted states. The grief process has always had an outcome similar to a mindfulness meditation experience for me. This means I have come away from 2020 with more autonomy increasing interdependent relationships with my young adult children. I hoped to be modeling interdependent relationships for my kids, however I hadn’t anticipated it would be realized through broken heartedness over some circumstance outside of my control!

Back in the emerging spring of 2020 I made a commitment to myself after the second bout of whatever it was I was experiencing. I made a strong commitment to increase my immunity. I unpacked some old strategies I had taken in the early 2000’s when I was experiencing symptoms of cancer. I reintroduced some of these valuable actions and introduced more. The outcome has been more than I could hope for.

There have been so many valuable lessons in 2020 that have the potential to increase the quality of living life now in 2021.

Have you explored your positive takeaways of 2020? What are you grateful for from 2020 that contributes now to your 2021 experience?

A few of mine are:

  • increased self-care
    • eating plan with focus on nutrition for separate body parts
    • infrared-saunas for detox and toning soft tissue
    • infrared light sessions for detox and toning soft tissue
    • skin brushing for lymph and skin support
    • rebounding for lymph support
    • pulling oil through teeth for detox
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  • increased connection to self and life
    • increased growing of sprouts, mushrooms and ferments
    • increased preparing foods from home
    • introduced chicks in early fall to explore home-grown eggs
  • increase in awareness of personal value needs & less tolerance of grey areas
    • seeing students and having roommates during COVID times has increased awareness of how meeting each others needs is not a primary focus in co-existing
    • 2020 has ended in a new habit of being committed to honestly expressing all needs on issues, no matter how small, to get equal and fair contribution to the wellness for all

2020 has ended with times of running, jumping and laughing with the chickens and of losing sleep over students or roommates introducing the COVID experience. It definitely has refocused attention on what is important to life.

The only way to change is action


by Renee Lindstrom

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May your transition into the season of self-connection be peaceful and meaningful

A choice this fall interrupted the familiar flow of my own seasonal  patterns.  I brightly made a decision to get some hens to provide eggs so I could have some more control over the quality of them.  What I wasn’t prepared for were roosters!  In the process of their growing into pullets and cockerels I fell in love.  They started calling loudly  as they got older so they had to go to a better place outside the city.  I felt love turn into resentment as my own needs for safety weren’t met from the noise that stimulated fear of outcomes.  Yet when getting them ready for transitioning to a new place the sadness was heartfelt.    The grief had me questioning my choices.  Left with one hen  I decided to get another one for company.  I have since learned the replacement was too young.   More time now is spent on providing separate spaces  until young one can fight back and hold their own space.  Another set-back, or so it seemed until I began picking them up to transport them.  The the little one snuggled in under my jacket and became quiet as it was receiving the affection and love it was seeking from the feisty bigger bird who was too young itself to be nurturing.  I felt a familiar warmth of love in the nanosecond the little one pushed into me for comfort.  Over the days it had begun to trust and recognize where it felt safe.
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Through this short season these experiences with the chickens has been a game changer.  They abruptly shifted my focus of attention and with their addition, something had to give in order to care for them.  Each day I have felt healthier with this shift in focus.  Their antics have brought joy, laughter and meaning.   Days have slowed down and became playful.
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These chickens have deepened the concept of intention, solutions and consequences.   They also reminded me  how quickly love turns into resentment when needs are not met and survival reactions set in.  The mind thoughts quickly turn to mean moral judgements of self.  Thoughts that are not real, however take control.  The sadness of grief  instantly returned feelings to a centeredness with meaning.  Finally, these experiences brought alive the value of caring for something outside oneself whereby nurturing brings a state of loving connection.  One that doesn’t compare to any other love sense.
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Sharing this with you my hope is to express how we make decisions daily that influence activities in the days that follow.    Some choices are devastating and others meaningful.  Sometimes both can happen in quick succession.  However, this is the life experience.  Feeling the feels during these chicken escapades has actually streamlined the randomness of my work life that has been hugely rewarding.  It has balanced where time is spent and increased connectedness while working.   I have witnessed similar changes in my students these past months whereby new ways of learning have integrated into more spontaneous life responses.  I perceive this as growing inner-trust and self-support that is influencing new responses to life.  I appreciate our learning opportunities together and want to express my deepest gratitude for the trust you have invested in me to take you into this new learning journey into physical movement, identifying the inner stories for increased language connection and environmental influences.
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May winter be a season of nurturing for you to explore and be restful in before springs stimulates and reflects new growth.
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I look forward to our time together in the coming seasons.
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You may enjoy this little video on Chicken Sand Bathing – you will see the strength of the feet.  It helped me witness something I have been
telling you these past months about chicken feet bone broth.
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2021 ‘s numerological influence is fun , adventure and exploration

The only way to change is action


by Renee Lindstrom

 1st Level – Getting Started (Introduction & Pattern)
 2nd Level – Getting Intouch (Experiencing & Connection)
 3rd Level – Integration (Embodiment)

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by Renee Lindstrom, GCFP @ Inside Awareness,  Living in Natures Love Blog
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Copyright 2014 – 2021 Renee Lindstrom, GCFP

Feldenkrais®, Feldenkrais Method®, Awareness Through Movement®, Functional Integration®, are registered service marks of the Feldenkrais Guild® of North America. Feldenkrais Method®

About Renee Lindstrom ‘s intention for living in the garden of life

I, like many, wasn’t borne into a thriving, balanced and attuned family landscape.  The illusive patterns that sowed the illusive culture of my lifestyle weren’t heart-centered.  Instead they were based upon fear, anger, unhappiness, discontent and jealousy.

Thinking

This led to years of seeking out meaning, understanding, and a life purpose that didn’t include the harming elements of my earlier family life.  This also led to supporting others along the way.

Through this exploration I have  made the connection to one’s  thinking and their results.  I have observed how the ways of ‘thinking’ create one life’s garden.

We are prisoners to our thinking

To put it another way,  I have seen and experienced examples of how we think becomes what we experience and  create in our lifestyle.  A lifestyle that can be calm and wonderful, or chaotic.  Thinking seems to be responsible for how we actively respond mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually.  Being unconscious to it makes us prisoners to it.

I have also discovered the process of thinking is separate from mental functions.  How do I know this?  As a babe we aren’t born with a pattern of thinking, yet as a babe we had the mental ability to integrate cultured patterns of thinking.

Usually ones focus isn’t on the brain’s functional abilities and its relationship to how experiences are processed.

I have witnessed and heard stories of  life times  lived through reactive behaviours originating from thoughts.  Thoughts based upon one’s thinking process that are not real or the truth of what is happening in the moment.  One example of a case study in years past is the reaction of running from situations,  literally by driving across the continent!  As the reaction would begin to calm I would be contacted only to discover the flight was from an initial triggering thought that wasn’t connected to any real actions of checking in to the source of it.  The flight was an expensive reactive behaviour mentally, emotionally, physically, financially and spiritually.

Exploring this life path I have discovered that even though I was born long after the honeymoon was over in my families experience, I thrive in beauty and the attributes of loving kindness, and have a high propensity for empathy.  My family and I simply weren’t a match.  In retrospect, the pain and suffering became the incentive to find ways to align with my true nature.  Along the way I have found clarity and understanding, and come away with some ways to live in the beauty that the garden of life can be.

A system of understanding to have clarity & for understanding

that is balancing

Sharing these ways with others while continuing my own practices has become an open system of learning.  This system goes out beyond the closed thinking patterns of making evaluations and moral judgments, and beliefs of  right and wrong thinking.  Each of the methods I integrated had their challenges in the learning stages due to the depth of ego that is experienced in our culture.  Ego is imbedded into behaviour yet it’s another elusive quality that people experience without being consciously aware of it and unable to identify and name it.

To borrow an evaluative experience from Buddhism, each method I dug deeply into is founded upon the concept of becoming enlightened.  However the challenges of  the teachers and participants wanting to be seen, heard and valued caused hurdles to overcome and created events of pain and suffering for all immersed in the educative experiences.    Taking the time to integrate these methods as a foundation for living myself has taken time and evolved over the years.  The system I am interested in contributing follows the Buddhist concept of eliminating incorrect use of ego.  We all have ego, however, I focus upon ego usage that pays attention to power with, not more over/under.  Why?  I want to live in the beauty that inspires and motivates.  The heightened stimulus I hope to experience comes from passion.  Passion for life, living and creating.

Mentoring others to switch on their innate ability to learn 

Somes ways of contributing to others as they commit to engaging in life to align more with their true nature are with individual programs or mentoring  integratable life components.   Life area programs and components focus in these areas of one’s experiences:

  • surroundings
  • inner sense of oneself (confidence, self-esteem, empowerment)
  • life purpose
  • cultivating awareness to identify and name intention
  • functional movement that cultivates awareness that holds the connection to the interplay of body movement, reactive behaviour, thinking and emotions
  • functioning relationships that cultivates awareness the holds the connection to the interplay of what’s real in the moment, what one thinks, and how one responds
  • value-based programs to support inner discernment to transform  moral judgments into value based judgments

Finding your intention and creating a target for meeting the goals of who you long to be with these programs 

The learning modules here at Inside Awareness can be specific to life areas whether you are:

  • looking for your life purpose
  • seeking to improve your relationships to all life
  • wanting to enhance your physical abilities
  • introduce a sense of sacredness in your environment

Each module are concrete actions steps that bring one into the shift they long for.

Each module has a foundation in practical steps and have applications that are logical yet bring focus to the elusive.

Renee focuses upon switching back on one’s inherent ability to learn where the experience becomes the teacher and the student becomes the sage.

The intention is to increases creativity and expressiveness in living.by Renee Lindstrom

Awareness Through Living Mentoring Programs Available:

 1st Level – Getting Started (Introduction & Pattern)
 2nd Level – Getting Intouch (Experiencing & Connection)
 3rd Level – Integration (Embodiment)

 

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by Renee Lindstrom, GCFP @ Inside Awareness,  Living in Natures Love Blog
Renee Lindstrom Live
Copyright 2014 – 2020 Renee Lindstrom, GCFP

Thinking patterns that create constraints to physical function, and false emotional responses

 

One of the possibilities for those longing to cultivate their own awarenesses is in the integration of a specific way to pause and listen.

 

This skill can turn illusive reactive behaviour into obvious thoughtful behaviour thereby increasing the quality of one’s life style, relationships, physical, mental and emotional wellbeing.

This style of listening cultivates awareness and connects one to their surrounding environment, inner emotional and mental environment and the very environment of functional movement.  Whether one functions with a  dominant right brain or left brain this style of listening creates balance.  Afterall we can access both sides of our brains equally.  I liken it to walking a maze or a labyrinth.  One is a right brain experience of introspection to connect and the other a left brain activity to solve puzzles.  The goal is to have a choice of pathways in any one moment.  Both right and left brain activities are equally valuable to reaching a specific target.

I experience right and left brain behavioural reactions in others whether the  focus is on movement, thinking functions, communication,  life purpose,  surroundings or lifestyle influences.  I have experienced what most have in common are the missing skills of how to make the change.  They can all identify it in others, and are quick to, however the model to dig deep within themselves to be self-witnessing is lacking.  It’s not a pattern in our general educational experiences.  It is an untapped resource.  There is a wealth of theory related material available yet the practical steps for integrating change are missing.  The theories out there contribute to the concept of something being “wrong” so there needs to be a fix. This is old school.   New school is that there is nothing wrong, it’s just a gap in the learning process.

Many of us process new information through old learning patterns from earlier cultural experiences.  This includes our:

  • thinking process
  • movement postures
  • emotional reactions.

Habitual behaviours can only only be transformed through exploring and practicing new ways of doing things with an attitude of open curiosity.

Over the years I have begun to witness that it’s how one thinks that is creating the dis-ease

As this post is focused upon types of thinking that pose a constraint to fully functioning with flexibility and clarity, in movement, thinking and responding, here are some types of learned responses.  Responses that are mental blocks to cultivating awareness that actually stop transformation of  habitual living and behaviours, mentally, emotionally and physically.

  • evaluative experiences in patterns of making moral judgments
    • labeling
    • assessing
    • diagnosing
    • criticism
    • incorrect use of one’s ability to compare
    • scarcity
  • positions of authority
    • right and wrong thinking
    • punishment and reward
    • making demands
    • hierarchical positions of power over
  • denial of responsibility
    • lack of honesty
    • blame and shame
  • competing
  • status quo

Developing the skills for transforming into who you long to be

 

Ways of integrating ones bodies of function is through new learning experiences for checking in and exploring:

 

 

  • how one thinks now and noticing if there is a better quality of experience with new patterns
  • how one moves now and noticing if there is a better quality of experience with new patterns
  • how one is stimulated by their lifestyle and surroundings now and noticing if there is a better quality of experience with new patterns

Finding your intention and creating a target for meeting the goals of who you long to be with Inside Awareness

The learning modules here at Inside Awareness can be specific to life areas whether you are:

  • looking for your life purpose
  • seeking to improve your relationships to all life
  • wanting to enhance your physical abilities
  • introduce a sense of sacredness in your environment 

Each module are concrete actions steps that bring one into the shift they long for.

Each module has a foundation in practical steps and have applications that are logical yet bring focus to the illusive.

Inside Awareness focuses upon switching back on one’s inherent ability to learn where the experience becomes the teacher and the student becomes the sage.

The intention is to increases creativity and expressiveness in living. by Renee Lindstrom

Awareness Through Living Mentoring Programs Available:

 1st Level – Getting Started (Introduction & Pattern)
 2nd Level – Getting Intouch (Experiencing & Connection)
 3rd Level – Integration (Embodiment)

 

Follow the journey on TwitterInstagram or Facebook

by Renee Lindstrom, GCFP @ Inside Awareness,  Living in Natures Love Blog
Renee Lindstrom Live
Copyright 2014 – 2020 Renee Lindstrom, GCFP

 

Past equals present, present equals future

 

In the land of right and wrong there is only the separating experience of right and wrong.

 

 

If one longs for connection, right and wrong isn’t important.

Your motivation for connection is what is important.

The skill: to move beyond reaction to pause and explore your intention.


by Renee Lindstrom

Awareness Through Living Programs Available:

 1st Level – Getting Started (Introduction & Pattern)
 2nd Level – Getting Intouch (Experiencing & Connection)
 3rd Level – Integration (Embodiment)

Follow the journey on TwitterInstagram or Facebook

by Renee Lindstrom, GCFP @ Inside Awareness,  Living in Natures Love Blog Renee Lindstrom Live
Copyright 2007 – 2020 Renee Lindstrom, GCFP

 

 

 

Like everyone in the world I wondered if my live interaction with students would come back to life

Getting set up for Functional Integration sessions (Feldenkrais Method of Somatic Education)

Like everyone in our recent reality seeing people in person had stopped or shifted to phone calls and zoom.  In the past few weeks as talk of  lifting the  restrictions began I had  doubt and uncertainty about how to move forward myself.  There was a  lingering question of whether anyone would come.  I wondered if there was a future.  All it took was a student to connect and inquire if I was seeing anyone yet or not.  They shared they would be willing to connect on-line yet expressed a preference to come in person.  Okay they will come, so now what?

Time to source out disposable face masks, gloves, a face shield, hand sanitizer, cleaners for disinfecting and new cleaning cloths.  Then set to work on the new appearance of the space.  Removing all extraneous objects, getting the steamer in to steam everything including the carpet.  Setting it up to walk through to experience how it could work.  This included changing shoes and having a specific pair just for that space and having disinfectant ready for spraying the soles of their shoes.  Walking through it it became apparent that I will know have to giving directions on how to enter into the office with me opening and closing doors to limit touching.  It’s a lot of extra work.  Going through it I found I was hot and sweating.

My appreciation grew for those in the care industry who have been working on the front lines.

After walking through this and recognizing it was doable I recognized this could be be totally integrated.  Then this same student inquired how much extra I would like to charge for the additional costs, etc.  I was thankful for this inquiry of thoughtfulness  My focus of attention was on the equipment and how to get ready, not the financial costs.  My thoughts go to how living and working through this appears to be affecting pretty much all of the primary nine life areas.  Getting serious about conscious safety at work increases the knowledge on how to be safer in my home life areas.  What ever I experience in either area, work or home, influences all of these:

  1. Wealth
  2. Fame
  3. Relationships
  4. Past
  5. Health
  6. Future
  7. Education
  8. Career
  9. Community

3 things I have learned from this experience

  1. It is doable.
  2. Extra precautions for cleanliness can be taken for the benefit of all.
  3. We can ask for and also be more considerate meeting the needs for valuing others and one-self.

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by Renee Lindstrom

Awareness Through Living Mentoring Programs Available:

1st Level – Getting Started (Introduction & Pattern)
 2nd Level – Getting Intouch (Experiencing & Connection)
 3rd Level – Integration (Embodiment)

Follow the journey on TwitterInstagram or Facebook

by Renee Lindstrom, GCFP @ Inside Awareness,  Living in Natures Love Blog
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